Pseudonym

2 hours ago, Kratom Enthusiast said:

 

Hey everyone,

This post feels like a confession.

Most of you know me as kratom enthusiast. I’ve been here for a few months — sharing strain reviews, dosing tips, even defending kratom when it felt like the whole world was against it. It wasn’t just a plant to me. It was a lifestyle, a shield, a ritual. Honestly, it was my identity.

But over time, the lines blurred. What started as a tool for managing pain, anxiety, whatever — turned into dependence. Then addiction. I stopped controlling it. It started controlling me. Waking up in withdrawal, chasing doses, measuring my day by alkaloids and half-truths. I ignored the warning signs, justified everything.

I kept saying it wasn’t that bad.

But it is.

I’m done. I’m trying to quit. Cold turkey. Tapering didn’t work — I always found an excuse to bump the dose. Now it’s just me, the insomnia, the tremors, the ache, the endless fog.

I thought quitting kratom would feel like freedom. It doesn’t. It feels like freefall.

But... I also need to be honest about something else.

I’ve already slipped.

I told myself I'd have one drink just to take the edge off the withdrawal. That was a week ago. Now, it's a bottle a day. Whiskey in my coffee. Vodka to sleep. Beer just to feel normal. I traded the leaves for the bottle — and I don’t even know if I regret it. Kratom made me numb. Alcohol makes me nothing, and somehow that feels like relief.

So yeah... I quit kratom.

And walked straight into something worse.

I'm still posting this because part of me still wants to fight. But another part is fading — quietly, with a drink in hand.

- Alcohol Enthusiast

yo dawg, respect. addiction is like one of the hardest things to deal with. i'm glad to see ur trying to make that step. good luck dawg!

were gonna miss you dawg!!!

12 hours ago, r/trees said:

Lmao, not sure why you of all people would say that.. but bad troll.
 

My ign is Rehman and my stats paged is linked here. The same ign I've used for nearly a decade. Ask anyone who's played this shit for any amount of time that isn't perm'd/ban evading like this guy about me and they should concur that I am in fact not a scammer.

If you want to sell these 50 flashbangs I will buy them all; just list them on the auction house.
 

not scammer but he did make me slightly sad recently. was doing uber eats in oly about 10 months ago, he asked for a water bottle and a tac bacon, i met him at the designated airfield while we were both enemy gang, and we managed to exchange the items and the money for those items without any hassle.

but also a couple days ago he shot me when i was naked in athira after just spawning it that made me very sad

44 minutes ago, Millennium said:

It would be the yapper @ Milo that would read pseudo's yap

Milo actually engaged with my points intellectually AND respectfully, where as you lack either. It takes me a while to profile someone, but I think I'm getting there with Milo. If we look at his message: 

17 hours ago, Milo said:

All do respect I think you're being dismissive of my entire point.

This is such an ELITE, KING TIER message right here. Remaining firm in his convictions, showing respect, yet not letting his own intellect be pranced around and evaded by someone attempting to undermine his walls, rather than tackle them directly. He manages to show his respect by challenging you with this message. And it's beautiful. If we look at other examples like his "apolocheese" for when mines had a 99% EV, or the way he lets rampant @'s on discord flow off his back like water. Milo is one of the best staff in this server, and I am not afraid to call many staff members retarded. Although I do not like using that word, I feel I become a worse more hateful person every time I say that word against someone with genuine emotion.

If we look at @ Gwate , his comments definitely lacked respect, and despite saying he was not gonna proof read any of what I wrote, he kind of did. But what he had was intellectual rigor, and while I believe he has a long way to go, along with myself, and along with all of us, but especially with him. I really do respect that he engaged with my messages, challenging me with his views.

And if we look at the messages from the sRNR, we can see what honestly appears to be to be the issue with the RNR in its current state. They are weak, their comments are nothing more than a drive by, they are unwilling to discuss the issues of how underpowered the RNR faction is, and how abusable the RNR is to the other two factions. They act as if it is not a problem, they act like because they fly around a xian every once in a while they are helping cultivate a good culture in the organization. They act as if contradictory logic in the handbooks is their strength, that is if they are even willing to admit there is logic in the handbook. I will say from my understanding marcus did basically have to solo write that entire thing, but maybe if you did that you could try accepting help from others when they have comments, rather than shunning them.

2 minutes ago, carrot said:

You meticulously combed the medic rules to find something like this to try to force them to "rule break", didn't you?

Psychotic behavior, perfect APD material. 

no collision lights is one i do regularlay because i don't have to take them hostage, but i get to have a fun littile interaction with the RNR, normally they just turn their collision lights off and go on with their merry way. but i guess i can start taking them hostage for 15 minutes and then killing them if APD doesn't come within that time.

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20 minutes ago, Gwate said:

10 hours ago, Pseudonym said:

there is no immediate exception saying "unless they are forced to", but i'm damn near 100% certain I can take a blueberry hostage,

My issue with this characterization is how you separate how hostage-taking does change the positive status of the individual arrested. When you hostage take someone, they are unable to participate in their active duties. You may be a medic in name when you are taken into a rebel area but you are not participating in any medical activities as you are unable to. If you took a medic hostage then forced them to do the role of a medic in a illegal area without another higher ranked medic present then you would be forcing them to break the rule. A better way to understand this is a medic violates a rule when in the pursuit of their duties they wilfully undermine or break a rule. 

Your mostly interpreting the handbook in a way which I thought would cause some more ridiculous outcomes, but would still be consistent, with the exception of some new stuff about medics being in a different state when they are a hostage. I think you might be conflating the medic being a hostage, with the medic being restrained. The general idea I'm getting from this is: If I restrained a medic, I can bring them anywhere, fed, illegal areas, gang turfs/gang base, whatever. But if I try to force them to do something in that situation, then it would be against the rules? How would this play out if I have a medic hostage, say fighting the cops at frog pro, then the cops tell him to "leave the area or be tazed", is he no longer allowed to stay there unless he is restrained? The cops can just completely nullify the ability of a medic to do anything when he is a hostage? In the rules it mentions hostages medic hostages being able to provide service to people they are instructed to, you can't do that while restrained, which means they do have some freedom of movement to refuse to be in that area.

also, it turns out that even though an EMT "must" not enter a redzone unless escorted by APD or superior medic, there is apparently a surprise "common sense" exception, the same "common sense" which doesn't apply to being able to force them to turn off collision lights, a matter equivalent to trying to force a medic to drop their medkit apparently.

1 minute ago, Natee said:

All this for 24 hours of no arma?

As stated in the preface: "I don't much care for saving myself a few extra hours so I can get back in the server faster. What I care about is being able to say that I followed the rules and the handbook reasonably, and that my actions were reasonable and did not justify a ban."

REEEDUUUUUUUUCCCCCCEEED!!!! REEEEEEEEEEDUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCEEEEEEEDDD!!!!

5 hours ago, Milo said:

All do respect I think you're being dismissive of my entire point. A demand asking a Medic or APD member to break a handbook rule is not a reasonable demand as then they would be liable for that violation internally within the faction. Any other reasonable demand would have sufficed. Perhaps that is something we could add to the supplemental section to make it more implicitly clear but I don't think by precedent valuing ones life should take priority over handbook rules. It would be extremely harmful if civilians could walk up to medics and say "give me your R&R skinned heli or die".

I do agree with that point. but robbing medics is something that is double extra mentioned is against the rules, where as collision lights off is just a single "must", and there are either similar "must"s without "unless Y"s, that if we apply the collision light logic to, we have to apply to them as well. For example: can i take a EMT hostage, and bring them to a red zone? according to the handbook: "EMT's must be escorted by an Altis Police Department (APD) officer or higher ranking medic to enter an illegal area". So if I kidnap a medic, and we apply this collision light logic to this specific case, we can't take EMTs to an illegal area.

1 minute ago, XnavrasX said:

Medics are required to have collision lights on at all times while flying. You telling the medic to turn the off is a violation of the R&R handbook and the medic did not follow your command. You cannot force medics to break rules. Ban was more than justified. Play the game, instead of fucking around with medics 

Can I bring an EMT to a redzone? Can I force a medic to land in an open field when I tell them "land or be titaned?

3 hours ago, Sw1nd1le said:

this is the guy that was taking medics hostage while the APD was doing a OOC training event and spamming Dispatches right?

wtf is an OOC training event? I tried dispatching the APD but no one was telling me what was going on

10 minutes ago, Milo said:

Honestly I can understand the ban reason. Under the Altis Life Rules Supplemental page in the RDM common misconceptions section it states:

In this case here I would opt to say that the demand was not reasonable. I would equate it similar to if someone asked a medic to drop their uniform or other medic specific gear. Although medics must value their lives, they must value the handbook first and they cannot comply to such a demand that asks them to break it.

For what it's worth, I don't see a ban like this making much of a difference for those aspirations. The APD requires you not have a ban for two weeks prior to your application for it to be accepted but I could see them waiving this if you explained the circumstances. As for administration, although no recent bans is highly desired; there also is really nothing saying having a recent ban makes you ineligible. Realistically no one is immune to mistakes and that's why the Staff IA section exists.

For a report like this I would've personally given a warning- really just not a super big deal in my eyes. You might be able to negotiate that in supplement of your ban if your concern is having it on your record. The warning would still remain part of your record as well but it won't bar you from joining the APD at all in any case. A complete lift though would probably be too far out of the question since I would agree that this was ultimately a rule break.

Anyway either way I wouldn't fret it

I am going to extremely fret it because I heavily believe my innocence. My point remains something like: The must in this case is not like a gang turf where the wording is: "All Medic units (Meaning BOTH ground and aerial units) are prohibited to enter/participate at ALL conquest, gang base skirmish, or Active Turfs. If you are in the area of a conquest when it starts, leave the area IMMEDIATELY", but rather more like a:

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Aerial vehicles may be landed at any of the following locations

1. Hospital
2. Air Garage
3. Any open, urban or rural, area with the sole intent to provide medical aid to a citizen who has requested a revive
4. Once the call for service is complete, the aircraft must be relocated to one of two previous locations
5. Landing zones must not cause disruption, destruction, or harm to players, vehicles, or buildings

Like are medics just not allowed to land in a rural field if they are told "land or be titaned" because it would violate the handbook? This is one of those things where yeah it says medics can't do it, but it would have the obvious implicit exception of: unless someone is threatening you with a gun, or titan in this case.

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Medics will follow all rules and laws which pertain to the civilian community, including but not limited to:

• Speed and traffic laws
• Disturbing the peace

 

If i'm chasing a medic, trying to kill him, is he not allowed to speed in a hatchback because that would violate the handbook?

I am Pseudonym. I have been justly banned for an unjust reason. I am not taking it lying down, for any of my supporters, I grant you this piece of evidence for why you should no longer support me. I am no longer a good person, I am a more genuine form of evil than you can find on this server. As proof, I present to you my ban appeal (skip to the epilogue for a partial self dox +ramblings of the damned)

BAN APPEAL IN ITS ENTIRETY:

Title: Pseudonym's Ban Appeal or: How I Learned to Stop Worrying and Become Hate
Exact ban message: RDM - Pseudonym - 1d - Strae

7 minutes ago, XnavrasX said:

You played for 10 years before using cheats, then for some reason, after 10 years of playing you said "fuck it Imma use cheats". That's some of the most dent head, smooth-brained shit I've ever seen. Ban well deserved.

why? is there a correct timeframe to use cheats? is it better to always cheat, or cheat then stop cheating, or no cheats then cheats, like if not cheating, then cheating is bad, then how about: cheats, no cheats, cheats, is that better?

12 minutes ago, Fwanxx said:

1. Suspicious Circumstances: If a medic has reasonable suspicion to believe that a player is attempting to attain services under false pretenses in order to take medical personnel hostage

I have 100+ hours on medic and have only been taken hostage once as a EMT and once as a S&R its not hard to use your brain

i mean i've never been denied when i was requesting under false pretenses in order to take medical personnel hostage. if the person trying to take you hostage isn't dumb and like trying to request medic text to fed, what are you supposed to do? if someone requests at sofia, and they tactically left their group so you don't realize its a fed group, what are you supposed to do? and if you think a group is gonna do a fed, are you literally just gonna deny everyone in that group just incase they do a fed?

if the rebels play it properly, there is nothing medics can do as long as they are still trying to generally revive people.

2 minutes ago, Tax this dick said:

maybe kill yourself you faggot 

listen, weakling. perhaps you must resort to silencing your critics, yet are to weak to silence them yourself so you tell them to do it for you, but i am not as such. i am a strong and independent forum poster who will continue challenging you, and continue to wish to be challenged by my "peers" (if you can even call them such). yet sadly, it appears as though you are not challenging me, it is just that you yourself are challenged. i pray for your improvement arc so that i may face some form of competition from my fellow olympians, because right now i'm in gold and you don't even know there's a race.

you should improve yourself, NOW! and create some value in your life, when you get better, i won't be able to stomp you, you will be a challenge, but as of now you are POINTLESS, except to find yourself a point. You are NOTHING, but you can create GREAT PURPOSE, and give a mental and athletic challenge to those around you, because what are you here for? to tell me to kill myself? IMPROVE YOURSELF, and i mean that with a 100%, with a 1000%, because right now i'm looking for competition but they are so far behind me and i haven't even moved a step in years.

21 minutes ago, Fwanxx said:

It'll just be easier to take a medic hostage as many of them just give themselves up and there is no sense of punishment from SR R&R. In my opinion the medic faction hasn't done anything or changed within that year to constitute them to use the casino tbf.

how do you not let yourself get taken hostage? if there is group with 20 players on it that say they are gonna do a fed in sidechat, and one of their members is requesting, you can't deny him because that would be denying an entire group. you have to revive people, which brings you to people who can take you hostage.

sometimes when i hop on the server i literally just click the respawn button, request medic, then take them hostage.

33 minutes ago, Milo said:

Right now I feel like there are still so many medics that would prefer to loiter in Kavala or high populated areas for quick revives bound to happen then travel for them. Which leaves a lot of players in other areas of the map SOL. My concern would be is that would make that problem worse.

if there aren't incentives for harder revives to the point where you have to disable features for medics, then maybe you need incentives for harder revives?

1 minute ago, Tax this dick said:

maybe add something that removes milos forum permissions 

maybe give some kind of feedback that he could actually think about?

interestingly enough, "Let medics gamble" and "Fuck them medics" are effectively the same answer

44 minutes ago, MrRylexx said:

#FreeRylex - been banned since 2020 - playing since 2016

my boy rylex didn't do ANYTHING illegal

2 hours ago, Sir Mitch The Third said:

Just a lil something to add to @ reskn

His current ban is due to using scripts on RDM Projekt... A server that isnt olympus. And my client is permed with no obvious solution. 

Now, with this being the case surely our glorious leaders here take cheating very seriously even if not on Olympus. 

But wait.... Whats this????? 

Ladies and Gentlemen of the Jury I present Exhibit A - A video posted by none other than @ Olsson  Blatent cheating silent aim type shit.

Now as you can see home boy is clearly cheating.

Does this mean that cheating is ok on whatever server OLSN joined here?

Or does someone else have to get permed?

There is a clear use of cheats here yet he's still and avid Olympus enjoyer.

Now ask yourselves this ladies and gentlemen of the jury....

How do you feel knowing that potential cheaters are roaming around untouched on our freshly built pyrgos casino?

Wait what was that? 

What gang is this man in???

 

It seems to me a little favouritism is at play here fellas now I dont know about you but if its one rule for one it should be one rule for another.

And please if im wrong here I'd like to know what the ground rules are here as it just looks like the servers a clubhouse, if you're in the club you don't have to follow the rules other people do and its a real shame because this server is great and in order to keep it thriving stuff like this should be treated equally.

 

 

@ Fraali  Id like to know your opinion on this

As Pseudonym, I approve of this message.

Actually he really never cheated..

He doesnt have an alt so it really just dont make any sense at all, he cameback after 2 weeks without playing to a ban evading ban while he never used an alt, either an admin did him wrong or theres a problem on how they linked / verify that ban.

I assure you I wouldnt be trying to cover his ass if he did, but he didnt that is ridiculous that nobody wants to talk with him on teamspeak yall have the wrong guy.

That guy is innocent, period.. 

1 hour ago, MlKEY said:

RT cries saying someone is gonna bleed out while theyre gambling but its fine for cops to gamble

either give medics gambling back or take it away for WL factions altogether

is this common sense? on my olympus forums?

damn red smoke literally ended up killing conquest fucking cooked brothers. guess i'll have to drop the p07 montage posthumously

1 minute ago, Mayo762 said:

pls someone

bro desperately trying to get some revenge on rexo

31 minutes ago, Mako said:

The odds on the roulette are 1:1 with picking color, there isn't any manipulation. 

The cards drawn are all randomized, there isn't any manipulation there. 

the amount of superstition around the casino is actually fucking insane. i've never had the chance to see IRL people with gambling problems, and how they justify it, so it's cool to be able to see real examples of it on the internet. i'm known as a guy who tests things in my gang, so they are always like "yo pseudo how about u test the casino?" and i'm like "your levels of degenercy know no bounds. You regularly zero out your bank accounts, you self remove the KOS at casino tag from yourself on discord. I encourage you to gamble, you don't deserve money anymore"

hey milo gets staff points its only fair us civilians get to earn a time from him

24 minutes ago, Millennium said:

Is this what our community has become… calling it 150% drop off instead of ghost hotel? Smh.

u mean the RDM map gang eurobang?

yo @ The Sovereign  any chance we can get a few more memes? this threads a lil dead rn despite it being pinned. Thanks!

11 hours ago, Moonini said:

You are a special kind of regarded 

hey hey guys stop fighting i like both of u