Hi Everyone; now that I'm able to speak my mind freely without needing to be worried about what I say in public, I'd like to make a post regarding my situation and shine some light on what really goes on behind closed doors.
Before I get into it, I want it to be known that I did not "freely" step down because "I didn't want to be SAPD anymore." That is a lie, and you should feel ashamed for telling people that you know who you are.
First off, I would like to point out that since becoming a SGT almost 300 days ago, I have never missed a time, never missed an OIC, and have never been on LOA.
For reference: (Each box represents a week, and the hours logged, I can only see 7 back.)
294
Iceman
4.83
4.98
3.53
3.63
3.12
3.77
3.93
There have been times when playing was tough, but I stuck through it because of my friends and not wanting to let anyone down. Pretty stupid, considering it's a video game, but I like to make others happy, even at my own expense at times. I would also like to point out that since becoming a Sr APD member, I have never been in game with my chief, nor has he ever logged into the game since I was promoted. That's mind-blowing.
I would like to bring to light some of the reasoning behind Winters and the upper SAPD feeling like they are above the rules they set for other people. Let's start with my conversation with the man himself during our final discussion today. He mentioned that he does not need to play in game due to completing "APD work" behind the scenes. That work consists of, and I quote, "This very conversation we are having right now." It was also mentioned that he sets up meetings (Quick Snapchat to the group chat FYI) and attends the meetings. I have also been at well over 80% of the meetings since becoming a senior, many others cannot say the same.
At this point, I was questioned on what I bring to the table for the APD. I felt my single strongest quality as a SAPD member was my relationships with Jr APD and my approachability. I tried to make myself available as much as I could and get you an answer as fast as I could. I felt I was very liked by others; however, when I mentioned this, I was told by Winters, “That's very subjective.” I disagree, and I think a large majority of Jr APD who have played with me would as well. It was also discussed in my rebuttal that certain Captain+ SAPD members did not want to play with a variety of Jr APD members because (Quote) “I have already played with other people enough in my 1500 hours on cop.” FYI to anyone who submits a Feedback request, playing with a variety of people is one of the main things that is looked at when being judged.
I did my best to leave specific names out of this because I would like to maintain the character that I have upheld ever since becoming SAPD. However, I wanted to put this post out in the open and give everyone a first-person POV of what really is talked about and what really goes on when no one is looking. I could sit here and type all day with examples; however, I will leave it here because if you made it this far, you get the point.
I would like to thank ALL of the Jr. APD for the opportunity to lead you this past year. It was an amazing experience, so thank you.