It's time to say enough.

[Maze 410]

Congratulations

You may think me weak for stepping down like this, but my heart can’t take anymore beat downs.

I joined the Olympus Community on September 30th, 2015 and made the staff by February of 2016. And every single day I’ve been messaged by different people, harassing me, tearing me apart because I’m a woman in a community of people who can’t stand the fact that I hold power above them. To dispel the rumors, I did NOT send nudes to get Air Responder. I did NOT send nudes to get moderator. I did NOT send nudes to get Admin. You want to know what I did? I worked hard. I showed an interest in helping a community that tore me apart. I followed the established rules and was kind to each person I met in game. I was not toxic and I did not tear people down. I set an example and helped those who needed it even before I reached Sr. R&R and the staff team. I cared. Some of you wonder why you were overlooked for staff or for certain ranks. Have you stopped to consider your behavior and actions towards others?

Every single day I put up with people who could hide behind a computer screen and use typed words to make someone feel like absolute shit. After a year and a half of reading the same thing over and over and over again, I began to believe it. It isn’t everyone, but a few can feel like a thousand. When you criticize and make fun of me, can’t you hear the tears in my voice? Can you feel the pain in my words that I have masked for hundreds of days now? Or are you laughing at me while reading this? Or have you stopped reading? Do you not see the tears in my smile? Can you not hear the way my voice breaks or the laugh to cover it up?

When you hide behind that computer screen and tear people down, do you feel powerful? Do you feel like you have meaning? Do you feel pride in your actions? Do you smile when you hear the pain in their voice? Do you forget that we are all human, sitting here with actual feelings? Yes, this is a video game. But we are real people who can be hurt by mere words. It’s like the saying “You could be told 99 positives in one day and only remember that 1 negative.”

I put my heart on display for all to see and those of you who want to hurt others, who want to cause pain, used the power granted to you by your peers to pulverize my heart. You smashed it to pieces that will require a lot of work and devotion to put back together. When someone puts themselves on display, they submit themselves to the mercy of others. It is your choice to treat them with love, or to do what you did to me and crush them into nothing.

Every single day, I fought back the urge to give up, to quit. And every single day, I found a reason to fight back. But for the past few weeks, I haven’t found anything other than more reasons to give up.

And yet, I would crawl across cut glass to get this message to you guys. Because maybe, just maybe, I can spare some of you the pain that I haven’t forgotten in the past year and a half in this community. You are worth it. And if no one has told you that you are cared about, you are loved, you are valuable, it makes me angry because you are worth so much more sometimes than what people let you believe. I have fought for you guys up to the point of exhaustion. Even those of you who won’t change, read this and understand. I fought for you because I wish someone would have fought for me. But I’m exhausted and I can’t fight for people who won’t change.

I don’t expect people to change tomorrow and I doubt this will have any effect. But I have a spark of hope that I wish those of you who care, will turn into an inferno. All it takes is the action of one to make a difference. Don’t be that person who tears people down because it makes you feel better. Make yourself feel better by being kind, by doing the right thing.

For those of you who don’t care, congratulations. You’ve succeeded in destroying yet another person. Feel happy about it?

As for everyone else, it has been so much fun playing with you guys. Every day I looked forward to spending time with you guys, creating funny memories. You won’t be forgotten.

Don't forget that we are still human.

- Dezree

[Hydra 307]

[platinumfire 539]

[ferg 279]

[PoptartRex 3294]

5 minutes ago, Dezree said:

As for everyone else, it has been so much fun playing with you guys. Every day I looked forward to spending time with you guys, creating funny memories. You won’t be forgotten.

Don't forget that we are still human.

- Dezree

Dezree this makes me so incredibly sad to see this. You have shown me so much love and encouragement over the course of my time on Olympus and I can't ever make it up to you. You are one of the strongest people I know. You have been through such much, especially in the last couple of years and to this day you manage to surprise me with the amount of heartbreak that you can pull through. You can always put a smile on someones face and your contributions to this community can not be forgotten.

For all those people that have given Dezree shit, regardless of whether or not it was straight to her face or not - I doubt that you could make it 10 feet in her shoes. She has dealt with more pain than ANY of us can imagine and I have always looked up to her with the highest respect for her and you should too. 

"She a badass with a good heart, soft but strong. Unapologetic and bluntly honest. She's the type of woman you go to war beside, not against."

@Dezree, I don't I will ever be able to forget the amount of love that you have shown towards me. I will always have respect for what you have done here and hope that we will be able to play again soon. I hope that you can achieve your goals and live life to the fullest.

I will miss you. 

o7

[Guest G.O.A.T.]

[Main 236]

Tbh I have not formally met you, but you did my RnR interview and you seemed very kind. I hope you still stick around and play in the community and maybe we could play. Thanks for all the bans on the scum on Olympus and all hard work to get the server (and RNR) to where it is now so that I as a player can enjoy the experience when I log on everyday! 

[iPopsicle 2205]

o7

Thank you for everything you've done for me and this community. I wish they realized how much you've done and how much of an asset they pushed away. 

 

A message to all the retards that get a boner off of hurting people's feelings:

FUCK YOU

[Guest]

Hate to see you go Dez. You've made a very positive impact on this community and on the staff during your time here. You will missed, dearly. And I mean that.

 

I hate that this is the only course available for you to get away from the pain, but know that you have left this community a little brighter.

 

Much love.

[DarwinsMisfit 56]

o7 fuck these cucks

 

[Turtle Chris 144]

I find it sad that it has come to this. I didn't really talk to you much, but we had some fun with the R&R air shows.

Thank you for everything that you've done for both R&R and Olympus as a whole.

It's sad to see you leave nonetheless, you will be missed.

o7

[Outcast 601]

07 Sorry to see you go, Good Luck

[DashTonic 797]

[Augustus 799]

cya dez, I wasn't able to be part of the R&R so I never talked to you, but I heard good things about you. Sad to see you go

 

[DeadPool 4376]

You will be missed dearly and so will your kill switches 

o7

[RubberDuck 244]

I will miss you Dez, don't let people get you down, I don't know what else to say, I'm really sad and sickened. Keep up the streams, Ide hate to see you go.

[Pledge 2292]

Sad to see you go @Dezree. You were the first staff member I ever met on Olympus, and you have always had my respect. You have done an absolutely tremendous job helping keep this server running and clean. Not only that but you are a great person, who has always been nice to everyone that I have ever seen you speak to. Good-luck with whatever endeavors you decide to embark on, and just remember, if you ever need us, some of us are here for you.

 

o7 Dez. It has been real.

 

P.S.

Don't blow up any more toilets, they never did anything to you.

[heyday 489]

We will miss you Dez o7

[falcon 765]

o7 Dezree, You will be missed <3

[DarwinsMisfit 56]

Can we still play card against humanity? @Dezree

[ThatNerdyGuy 5914]

Sad to see you go Dez, I never really got to talk to you much but you were a very important person in this community.  It's a shame that people who are insecure about themselves can cause so much damage to people who are just being nice to everyone. You will be missed. 

 

[Brennan 568]

You forum banned for 8 hours for saying "ETA"  For that I do not forgive.
Otherwise, Thank you for doing admin things. o7

[Bubbaloo - Reusable P Cup 3037]

@Dezree you are great. Don't let shit-tard, penis eating-diarreah drinking-vomit licking ignorant fucktards get to you. 

You are an amazing woman and a good friend we had some good times together. But if the community can't appreciate what you do then this is the best you can do for your mental health. 

I hope you eventually forget the reasons you left Olympus and just replace those thoughts with the reasons you stayed for so long. 

Take care Dez. 

[-dante- 5168]

It's incredibly disturbing that the things that were done and said to you were labeled as 'funny', 'entertaining', and 'OK'. You were one of the first staff members I ever knew and Ive always admired your work despite the animosity that was directed at you. None that you deserved, might I add. Ido hope taking this route can help you heal and i hope you do know that I and everyone else who ha spoken up for you will always be here for you no matter what and I do hope that you one day return a happier person. Hopefully by then some of these children that haven't been taught what respect is will learn it, forcefully. 

You are absolutely amazing Dez. Dont let anyone ever make you believe differently. 

o7

[Hot Pocket 611]

I'm not usually a guy who shows a lot of emotion to these kind of posts but man, this makes me really sad. I only got to play games with you that much, but when I have, I have had a lot of fun. To all the people that feel like they need to rip someone apart in order to make yourself big... take a look in the mirror. Despite all the harassment that has been directed towards you, you never stooped down to there level, I don't think I am even as big of a person to that.

I wish you luck in the future and know that you can get through this. I have been verbally harassed before in the past (not as bad as your case) and I know how it feels.... I know you can get through this!